Tiger Stripes

So I wanted to write something in reference to a blog I just read - http://www.scarymommy.com/a-mothers-body/. I <3 a="" and="" can="" damn="" done="" emailed="" have="" haven="" href="http://www.rantsfrommommyland.com/" i="" m="" me="" now="" posts="" read="" site="" so="" still="" t="" that="" the="" them...and="" this="" to="" why="" with="" wondering="">http://www.rantsfrommommyland.com/
ladies...but I digress...

In Scary Mommy's post, she says that while she wouldn't trade the imperfections for the experiences she has gained, she doesn't care for the imperfections...

I disagree - each change in my body was because of something that was never supposed to happen for me. Each stretch mark, worsened medical condition, extra pound and all the pills I take now are a constant reminder of Boog...more so than that, the medical issues and pills are constant reminders that doctors can be wrong and sometimes you just have to do what you feel is right...

I think I may have a bit of inspiration for my next tattoo...hmmm...

and apparently this is the blog that started it - http://www.howtobeadad.com/2012/8410/you-are-mama-we-hear-you-roar.

When your bridge starts to crumble

So my post the other day was called Building Bridges...But what happens when the bridge starts to crumble?

I want my mom and Boog to get to know each other, spend time together, have a relationship...But I don't like being around her when she's been drinking, and I don't want him around either...

What do you do when you tell your two year old that you're going to Gammaw's house and you can tell he's excited...then you get there and she's been drinking...Do you just put on your big girl britches and deal with it so he can have a good time? Do you just make sure to cut out early before things go south? Or do you just say fuck it and leave as soon as you get there?

Keep in mind that this visit had been planned, only for 24 hours, but planned none the less...

I went with option B, cutting out early before things go south...and it seemed to work...I was getting irritated with her, but Boog was having a good time for the most part...

How do I bring this up to her without her freaking out and cutting off all contact with us/him again? Like I said before (http://lifehereonout.blogspot.com/2011/11/dear-abby.html), she didn't see him for a good bit of months, and the time she saw him that I mentioned that happened in July, was only for about 5 minutes out front of her house...

Anyway, thanks for reading...Open for ideas...